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Heartfelt Healing: Amanda's Grief Blog

Welcome to the inside of my brain.

I've decided to share my raw and emotional journey through the depths of grief with the world. Why? Because navigating grief is awful, and in my experience, healing comes from sharing heartfelt stories, connecting with other people who understand, and from having grief acknowledged and witnessed by others.

If you are reading this and you have lost someone close to you, I am so sorry for your loss. I wish you comfort amid the discomfort.

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Or Rather, Someone

- June 18, 2026

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Honouring Her, Step by Step

- June 07, 2026

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Mom Cost me Hundreds of Dollars

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My First Mother’s Day as a Mom Without My Mom

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The Closet, The Clothes, The Timing: What she left for me to find

- April 25, 2026

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Layered Grief - I miss you, Auntie Debbie

- April 10, 2026

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Perogie Day: for all the “one days” we didn’t get

- March 28, 2026

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