It's a Girl!

My husband and I found out recently that we’re having a baby girl!!!

I can’t even explain how special that feels. The moment the words left the ultrasound tech’s mouth, something shifted in me. It was the kind of moment that made me smile and tear up at the same time. A girl. My girl.

Maybe it’s because of the kind of relationship I had with my mom. She was my person. The one I called when I needed comfort, or advice, or just to talk something out for the tenth time. She understood me in this quiet, steady way that made me feel safe in the world. We had the kind of closeness I now realize was a gift - not everyone gets that kind of bond.

So to find out that I get to raise a daughter of my own… it just feels really emotional and meaningful. I know every relationship is different, and I’m not trying to recreate what I had with my mom, but I do hope I can pass along some of the warmth, support, and unconditional love she gave me.

I hope my daughter will always know she can come to me - messy feelings, big dreams, weird questions and all. Just like I did with my mom.

It breaks my heart that they’ll never get to meet. But it also fills my heart to think of how my mom’s love might live on through me… and into her.